You

  It’s beginning to feel similar to how it felt right before He left. I really don’t want to go down that road again – not now – not ever.

I don’t know what you’re feeling right now, but I know that you are not happy. I understand that life cannot always be full of joy and I’m not asking you to pretend that everything is okay when it’s obviously NOT. But I am asking you to PLEASE remember that I am here. I live in the same apartment as you – I am your partner. Please don’t block me out, push me away and leave me alone AGAIN – it’s not fair to me. This is a relationship we are in.

I’ll admit that I am not the most patient person. I could probably deal with your downs better if I were. I just have a hard time understanding what is going on sometimes – like now. Not understanding makes me feel frustrated. I think that I try to make things ‘better’, but most of the time it seems that no matter what I do NOTHING changes. I see the same vacant look in your eyes. Nothing I do seems to please you. I’m still left standing alone.

I’m willing – and want to – work on this relationship, but I can’t do it ALONE. I’m not in a relationship with myself – though at times it feels that way.

What do I mean to you? Anything? Do you need space? Time apart from me? Have I done something to make you SO distant?

I don’t know what to think when it gets like this. All I know is that neither one of us is happy and I don’t like this AT ALL.

I still love you – I just hate the road you’re turning onto at the moment.

Any idea of when you might decide to turn around and come back to me?